A fresh panic
Oh joy
To delight in the lack of control
The command center flashing brilliant warnings
Illuminating the dark panels with vibrant electricity
The pulse which sends shivers through spinal tunnels
Charging like the dark knight into pregnant homes
The sparks of conflagrations wave the banner of mutiny
Lethargy bombarded by a crude awakening
The troops wake and rally for one final hoorah
Inside the drift
No turning back
Put out the lights
On polite temptations
Reel in the spell
You've conjured secretively
In trepid hours
With waning patience
Look not towards the haze
But expel this broken anger
Into the misty dreamscape
Where happiness soundly sleeps
Come home
Come home dear child
And receive my love
I am now in a place
To offer it to you unconditionally
It breaks my heart
To see you carry around the sadness of this world
And to shrink inside a vacuum of fear
That doesn't belong to you
I hope my trust can be mended
And that you will remember our home is shared
I promise to keep the fire warm
And the water pure for your return
I will be patient and love you
Even if you don't heed the call
I love you for being so brave
For being so sensitive
For being alive and a blessing of this earth
Come on you beating heart
Play us a new syncopation
We're getting tired of this pace
You are wearing us down
The excitement has lost its edge
And has been stripped to a raw nerve
It is a maniacal demand on the rest of us to chase you down
It is time to strip you of your leadership
We miss the collaborative jams of unanticipated travel
And we ask that you once again insert yourself into our communal exchange
And simply provide us with the sufficient rhythm so that we may march in unison
Oh how i want to keep you hidden
Locked inside a devious coronation
Isolated from all potential outbreak
And quarantined inside my chest
Yet your escape is as inevitable
As my secret wish to set you free
To unburden myself from your incessant cravings
And break all the agreements i made to those i promised to protect
No longer can i muster the enthusiasm
To walk the disciples path in faithful servitude
With you sounding off like a timeless bomb
And threatening to expose me at long last
Lay that gavel down Big Judge
The hierarchal throne from which you cast your judgment
Offers you only a singular perspective
A skewed vantage point from on high
Descend from your cushioned bench
Which is numbing your senses
And level your gaze back in this earthly realm
Meet me amist the chaos of
Dreams... Ambitions... Expectations... Fears
And then handle your gavel from here
Look deep into my eyes
And hear the changing resonance of your sentencing
It is with great honor that i call myself your son
With great humility that my reflection to the world is cast from your glow
With great reverence that I embody your strength and leadership and wisdom
With great joy that i am able to join you on so many adventures
With great gratitude that i am the recipient of your love and support
With great humor that we can navigate the perils of filmmaking together
With great compassion that I am here to listen to your struggles and trials and growth
And with the greatest pride that I call you Mom
Squishy Squishy Hullabaloo
I love you and you love meatless foods
Squishy Squishy Hullabaloo
You love me and i love Youtube
Squishy Squishy Hullaballay
You love me and I love Iodine
The remnants of fallen tears
Form a cantankerous coalition
A regiment of reincarnates
Created to abolish the memory blockers
That have formed to implement the old oppressions
With strength this fluid faction
Grows in number with every salty drop
And breaks down the barricade with loving pressure
So let your tears fall
And join the revolution
I will prove to you how worthy i am
"But i already love you" you say
And set out to do the impossible
"But i already love you" you say
And vanquish all my enemies
"But i already love you" you say
And become a great success
"But i already love you" you say
And grow and change and improve
"But i already love you" you say
And i will win your love for me
"But... nevermind" you say
An inch closer
But the target pushes back with every step
There
Right there
In between the breath
A freeze frame in motion
And it's yours
All yours
That is the beauty of the moment
It belongs to you
Or rather you belong to it
You are the photographer and the subject
The creator and the creation
And you are the sole audience
For the universe's masterpiece
What a privilege
Don't forget to applaud
Break Everything
Your glassy perceptions
Smash
The shield around your heart
Smash
Old habits that no longer serve
Smash
The limitations of your mind
Smash
Your attachments to pain, to death, to life
Smash Smash Smash
Oil your instrument with love
And take some wild swings
Break down the barriers
And smash your way back to the beginning
Without your integrity holstered to your hip
You aimlessly shuffle between self sabotage and energetic manipulation
Your power significantly diminishing with every half truth that unspools its battered thread
Projecting outwards this coward's hurtful remorse from unintended wrong doing
Your victim-fueled rage spirals into a vortex or repetitive polygons
Pulsing stagnantly in a predatory web
Time to check your holster and regain self mastery through re-integration
Dig out the drama and bake it in the stars
While you grease the inflammatory prize-wheel of celestial dominance
Newly formed patterns emerging inside waves of invisible sensation
Hammer out the dogmatic details of your destiny
And yet there you sit
Stunned into a paralytic fog of complacency
Blind to the ever-shifting state of your own miraculous evolution
It's in there you know
Maybe its time to just trust me
And accept that what you are looking for so desperately
Is already within you
It is only new-age bullshit
If you keep averting your eyes to the truth
But you know it as well as I do
That the health and clarity and wisdom
And love and guidance and patience
And maturity and union and harmony
And forgiveness and worth and peace
That you are looking for
Already knows it's home
You just have to walk inside
And face the consequence of owning those qualities
I think you are ready
How about you?
I miss people greatly
What a luxury they once were
But the world has moved on
And an undervalued commodity such as touch
Has faded into the background of non necessities
And look how we flourish
And thrive inside our skulls
While our hearts have modeled the crustaceans
And crawled silently away seeking new homes
But what was never known
Can never be lost
And i curse this memory
For holding onto such distant happiness
And I curse myself for the joys
Which now cause me pain
Alone
Targeted by a feeling
Of unnamed importance
The moment is an elusive butterfly
Landing just softly enough for a stolen glance
The coffin smell of anticipation
Births a tiny insight into this black box of petrified dreams
And the magic contained in borderless parameters
Seeps into the cracked hearts
Of those who share the courageous desire
To sit silently with the unknown
Who am i to grant you freedom
To be your gate keeper
Who am i to keep you to myself
To selfishly lock the door
I keep you safe in a guise
Of keeping you for as long as i can
Afraid that at any moment
You may make the choice not to return
I put on the noble air of protector
But am truly afraid of being left alone
I hope my fear does not diminish my love
And that you will forgive me my faults
Drop in and feel it
Feel it so deeply you stop thinking
Feel it vibrate its message to you
And only respond by feeling it
By knowing this is your power
This is your communication
This is love
And this is truth
This vibration is the very essence
Of what you spend so much time avoiding
Embrace it
Listen to it
Be it
And allow it to resonate
Its purity through you
I have slipped and fallen into my TV
I hope i never return
From the panoramic dream of images
I love the people i meet here
I love their worlds
So safe and contained and without consequence
Yes they are all so desperate to sell me on their lives
And i am a willing buyer with money to spend
As long as they keep me in their grasp
That is the deal
They must hold my attention
And keep it off myself as long as they can
And i will gladly give them my time